After cracking (an apparently not vital for locomotion) part of my pelvis late last week & living though a weekend of increasing pain, I've been astonished at how quickly the pain has resolved & my psychological orientation turned around. My bones have been weakened near the site of the tumor around my lower spine because of radiation & chemotherapy, so putting a little extra strain on it by bending to pick something up apparently caused a crack. It began like a bad muscle ache on Friday & got worse until Tuesday when I got in to see my oncologist. (Could have gone to the Emergency Room but wouldn't have been numbed & told to see my oncologist. Figured I'd just wait.) And I have to say that once I arrived my team swung into action with X-Rays, an IV for morphine, steroids . . . so that by the time I left I was already beginning to feel better. And at this point, about a week after the incident, I feel better that I had before I injured myself. The added attention to the pelvic pain has spilled over & is alleviating some of the more general pain associated with the cancer. It's not as if I'm dancing--I still walk with a walker--but I feel almost well. Which is a little unsettling. When I feel this well, it can be hard to recognize that I am still sick with kidney cancer. Most of this is no doubt a bounce-back effect from last week's misery. When severe pain is reduced the body goes into a kind of celebration & pulls the mind along with it. I'm not complaining. I'll take it. One result has been a spurt of writing--several short poems (not usually my best mode) with which I am quite happy. I've secretly sent a couple to friends for whom I thought they would have special resonance, but amn otherwise holding them close to my chest until I'm more sure of the language I've written in, which is much more Harmonium than Spring & All. More lush than I have been accustomed to working in.